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Ryan Cabrera- True lyrics

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong to me

You might think
I dont look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cause im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps beating faster

Ive waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life ive waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

Ive waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life ive waited

This is true

I know when i go
Ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

Ive waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life ive waited

This is true...

VALENTINES WISH LIST<3
1. REAL duck (gender doesnt matter)
2. GIANT CAREBEAR?
3. caramel capaccino from starbucks
4. REAL duck (gender doesnt matter)
5. REAL duck (gender doesnt matter)
6-100. REAL duck (gender doesnt matter)

VALENTINES DAY=
     Singles
     Awareness
     Day
(SAD) ;(

recent thoughts:
~ welcome to my life
~ micah...WAHT A BUNCH OF LAME-o GUYS. HUH!?
~ wanna play hide n seek?..well, you cant handle that game!!! WTF?!
~ since when do you wear HURLEY? since never you FAG!
~ VOLCOM STONE... rock me!
~ TASTE OF CHAOS TOUR!
~ ill take a drink...wanna bite?...HAHA TOO BAD FUKCER!
~ i dont party, but thanks for the invite...
~ i dont drink, but thanks for the offer...
~ i dont smoke, but thanks for NOTHING!
~ i want a Jack Russel dog... ;( PLEASE? ( i wanna dog i can fit in my purse)
~ HOW BOUT YOU DONT DO THAT PLEASE!

haha, Micah and me made up our own "STRAIGHT EDGE TALK"...
     ~Mike's Hard Lemonade
     ~i tasted some wine one time, but thats it
     ~yeah, ive smoked... THE GUY I WAS RACING!
     ~yeah, ive smoked... some guy was doing it right next to me

the "LiNGO" in History... ;D
     ~FULL SPEED AHEAD AND DAM THE TORPEDOES ! ! !
     ~THE UNION-NORTH
       THE CONFEDERATES-SOUTH
     ~waht the Lincoln is that?!

MAN O MAN ARE WE GREAT OR WAHT?!  ok... man, finals are FINALLY over... gosh, i can stop stressing...i think i got like 2 C's though, man o man...this sucks ass!  and yesturday i was up until like 3 in the morning finishing my Pearl Harbor Research Paper outline.. I WAS LIKE REALLY STRESSING!  but anywho...no one wants to hear about my boring life... *sigh*

but yeah...today after school...(we got out of school at 12:05pm...some wierd faculty meeting or something like that)...so we headed over to get some food... (micah, josie, Joeseph, and me)...the us girls took our food and brought it to Marie Kerr and had a picnic...how cute is that?!  NOT CUTE ENOUGH!  cuz like after, then we went to Barnes and Noble and had a blast there and we READ! it was SOOOO exciting...but anywho...we ran into Mike and Kissel there and Kissel and me were talking about Prom dresses n waht not... (kinda far away but wahtever)...AND I GOT MY CARAMEL FRAPACCINO AT STARBUCKS! YESSSSS!

LIBRA:
negative characteristics: fearful...self-indulgent...indecisive...avoids argument and any cost...emotionally fragile...manipulative...and FLIRTATIOUS (uh oh, watch out now! haha)
positive characteristics: fair-minded...charming...artistic...even-tempered...sociable...diplomatic...intellectually sophisticated...easy going...never jumps to conclusions
>>>>>when libras come in contact with something she wants. she fights to get it. she uses her good looks to reel in the fish. but once the challenge is gone, she runs away as fast as she can. when she finds love, its hard for someone to talk her out of it. libras tend to be a big flirt and it may later lead her into trouble. one of her best skills is flirting, get use to it. she wont change for anyone.<<<<<

recent thoughts:
~ timing is everything
~ i want a duck for valentines day PLEASE ;D
~ wanna be mine FOREVER?!
~ i aint ya biotch foo!
~ dont play games...if so...i guess i lose! YEAH!
~ i saw that... buahahaha!
~ no thanks, im not craving strawberries :D

FINALS ARE COMING UP! OH NO! ...i think i need to study...like REALLY hard....THIS SUCKS!

Taste of Chaos Tour:
-March 30th in Fresno
-April 1st in San Diego

waht a day yesturday... after school, micah and me went to...
~TARGET (bought makeup and had a pillow fight?...eff'n micah made me chase her around the store just to give her, her fone, you whore! ;D)
~STARBUCKS (to get me a CARAMEL FRAPACCINO cuz i havent had one in like 2 days)
~BARNES N NOBLE (read some freakin awesome books! yesss!)
~MARIE KERR PARK (rode the swings soooo high...like a kite ;D and then we just watched some skateboarders skate...wahta blast! haha)
~MALL (BORiNG! we looked at those painted crabs...bought me a freakin awesome calender...and met up with Colt)
~MARIE KERR PARK AGAIN (rode the swings soooo high, like a kite again ;D spun on a lil spinny thing...i went down some awesome slides...and i was doing some great word rhyming game ;D and we said goodbye to Colt...sounds awesome, eh?!)
~WENT WITH MICAH TO MY HOUSE (met up with my mom)
~STEER N STEIN (oh gosh....fun?)
~HOME (said goodbye to micah)
...then i talked to Colt on the phone for a little, went on the internet, and talked to Mike for the while before i went to bed...(waht a tiring day...*sigh*)

now about steer n stein...hahaha... kay, like we walked into Steer n Stein and some kid (like 15) was staring at me and i just ignored him...and then when we were sitting down to eat, his DAD started staring at me too...i was like wtf?! and my mom was like "i think they think they know you or something"...so we just kinda ignored them...but then the kids whole freakin table was staring at me, so micah and me went to the bathroom to see if there was like something on my face...(But there wasnt) and when i got back out there they were still staring...so like micah started to stare at the kid back in attempt to scare him, but like i guess the kid was tellin micah that he liked me... WIERDO!  and so i just kinda sat there and let him stare (cuz waht else could i do)...and then after dinner we waited till they left and then we got up to leave...but then that kid came back and gave me a shy wave and was like "bye"...haha, silly boy...then when we were walking out the door the kid was holding the door open for us and it was sooo freakin funny...micah and me were just crackin up the whole time...kinda wierd, eh?!

HOPE YOU GUYS HAD A GREAT CHRISTMAS AND AN AWESOME NEW YEARS!  (kinda late, but yeah....)

some random recent pictures...

recent thoughts:
~ UNDER THE CL0UDS
~ ...sunshine...hahahahahh!
~ micah, would u steal my sunshine?
~ FINALS! OH NO!
~ got finals?! SURE DO!
~ terd-a-ler n chicken ass (haha, mike you crack me up)
~ POOR MICAH (i think you know waht im talkin about, haha)
~ james: wtf is a princess net? i thot it was a masquito net? (MOTHER EFFR!)
~ since youve been gone...

HAPPY BELATED THANKSGIVING ! ! ! Hope you guys had a great one!  Well, i have been oh so busy, but yeah... i wanted to put up the pictures that micah and me took when we were at the mall a couple weeks ago...hahah... i think they are quite amusing ;D  But yeah, YESTURDAY i went to the mall to take my lil cousins to go see Spongebob Squarepants... man, that movie REALLY isnt for kids... one of my cousins started crying because she were sooo scared...but after the movie, i ran into Aurelio and we hung out for a lil bit and then he left... when i got home Aurelio stopped by n we just chilled for awhile... (he watched me have my lil cousins go crazy on me)...haha... but yeah, OH YEAH! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ROGER ! ! ! ROGER'S FINALLY 16! woop woop! how exciting is that?! 

Last night Jenn, Shane, Kelly and James spent the night last night...and man o man did we have fun! ;D it was the greatest doode!  But yeah, we put on the fire and made SMORES (mmmm!) and then we all camped out in my living room and watched "Signs" and "The Sweetest Thing"... then we just started watching series and series of F.R.I.E.N.DS. on DVD ;D  it was great! and then we all knocked out ;D ok...well, i dont wanna keep jabberin on...so here are those pictures i was talking about.. ;D ENJOY!

...something happened last night...and im confused...things will get better for me, right? i hope... =/...

IM A GOOFY GOOBER (yeah!)
YOU'RE A GOOFY GOOBER (yeah!)
WE'RE ALL GOOFY GOOBERS (yeah!)
GOOFY GOOFY GOOBER GOOBERS! (yeah!)
~spongebob square pants~

~~~BURY YOUR DEAD performing at EL DORADO (Lancaster) on November 29th @ 6pm... 10$ admission ;D
~~~THE CRAZE, THE AIRPLANES, THE PAINKILLERS, THE FIREBIRD BAND performing at Mr. Cue's Billiards (Lancaster) on November 21st @ 7pm... 7$ admission ;D
^you guys cant miss it... it'll be awesome!

random thoughts:
~ im a goofy goober
~ STOP BEING SO NOSY POSY!
~ youre a BUBBLE BLOWIN' DOUBLE BABY ;P
~ Kris, you rock my sox!
~ "i will not be afraid" ~the sweetest thing~
~ skateing at 12? right James?
~ its not ready time. . . its GO time!
~ HAPPY BELATED THANKSGIVING!
~ HAPPY BELTED BIRTHDAY ROGER!